[livingwith]

I am okay to talk about my son he was diagnosed on September 26, 2008 I will never forget that day for the rest of my life. We expect our kids to be everything and for it changed and I accepted it now. I cried and cried what did I do wrong? But I was in denial and so was my husband.
We were going to get a second opinion but we stopped and realized that we can’t be selfish and let our son go through a bunch of testing again. I prayed alot and I even prayed even more that this was a mistake...Read the full article

[worrieddad40]

hi there i read your message i am a single father rasing
a 4yr old who was recently diganose with autisim. i am
very knew to this but i as a father i knew something was
going on with my child. my son started hitting his head
to furniture, floors, whatever he could at the age of 7
months. i brought him to the docotr thinking he had
an brain tumor or something, but when they ran the test
it showed nothing, well he looked at me n told me he
thought my son was prepareing me for the terrible 2's
but then my son had trouble walking he would stumble
n fall all the time. when he was a baby he never crawled
he would glide himself on the floor like a helpless child
as he got older his balance was poor the docotrs said it
was fluid in the ears so they put tubes, well even though
he had tubes things never got better instead he still hit
his head n this continued all thru his 4 th yr. my son has
never had any gone thru early steps cause they could never
diagnose him properly. well my sons behaviour got worse,
he struggles with speach, dressing himself is like a battle
for me n him, he gets frustrated very easily n whines n cries
for anything, he has no sense of danger he is wild n about
he plays best alone than with others, demands my full attention
at all times, clings to me, afraid of certain things, dose not sleep
well n just on the go all the time. i well this yr his docotor has
asked me has my son been tested for autisim? i am like what is that?
he said my son is showing signs of it a lot. my son is a fraid to get
his hair cut struggled with it since he was 1 n now he is almost 5
i can't seem to get him to get one, then there is going to the doctor
we sit in the lobby waittin n he screams n cries i wanna go home dad
please i wanna go home, but he has to be seen so i struggle with him
til i leave the place. they have to restrain him to see to him holding
him down is a struggle but its something we have to do for the doctor
to see to him. everytime i go i have to struggle. so now he is found
autisim by his doctor, well i had to get second oppion n then thats when
i was told he sure dose! my heart aches to see him struggle so much!
its like a daily battle for me i wish i would have know earlier in his
life but it seems they waitted til it has gotten this far, my son is
about to start school would have been gone this year if he was potty
trained but he did not potty train til a month afther his 4th birthday!
he can not clean himself afther he dose so i must do it for him. i tried
to let him do it on his own but he just tries n gets it everywhere
but the he screams at me to go n clean him n he will whine n scream
if i do not go to him when he wants me too. he interupts conversations
always uo in my face screaming at me. he tantrums for hours n just goes
wild n out of control. when he is playing with his toys n if they don't work
as he thinks they should he screams n kicks n throws them across the room
then when he is in time out he destroys his room, when creating a mess
he refuses to helpn when its all clean he goes back n dose it again, again
its like no matter how many times i say no its like he can understand that.
i have him in a routine or should i say i did lol but it all changed so fast!
it just seems like something took over him! now he is going thru test for
school he is not scoring n a bracket of his age limit he is scoring below
his age bracket in social skill,motor skilln etc. when i watch him i see
something more than they do but i guess the state requires all these test
but when they were doing the test i could see my boy had troubles i was
teaching him at home thinking he was ready but then i seen things they
taught them in school n then saw he really needed more help than i had
thought.his coping skills or really off track i was told to get him to a routine
but i have had him on a routine since he was 2 n it all worked out but now
he is getting older my routine is falling apart bit by bit! he wants to watch
movies but yet 5 minutes into it he is afther to go play n i don't let him
cause i try to get him to see when we do one thing we finish that one!
but not with him he dose or tries to do 5 things at once my home is
caotic books, puzzles, toys, everywhere n he just will not stop! then
he has this mess n wants to go outside i tell him once its picked up we
can but he refuses. then when ridding his bike he rides for maybe 10
minutes n stops on the road n cries,screams for me to pull him the rest
of the way! i do it people see me throught out this town pulling or
carrying my child while walking. i have a spinal diease i am unable to
work i also suffer from glacomma in both eyes almost blind in one
i have asthma with interfeears with my daily life but i am here trying
to help my son with this n my heart is breaking cause i don't know
how to or what to exspect. well a feww weeks ago he started
repeating his words numerous of times n i got startled its like his words
are not wanting to come out or something but this just recently started
n he is almost 5! they say its the tics. well thats my life with an autistic
child, but i must say he is also a smart child he can do things that most kids
can't i tell his daily i love him n that he can be anything he wants to be
as long as he puts his mind to it nothing is impossible! i see great things
in his future, but i worried that if he isn't able to learn to cope with things
now it can turn to a bad one! but i am his father n i will help him thru this
as long as their is breathe in me i will do all i can to help. i love my child
i do all i can to guide him thru life no matter if i have to struggle with him
its all worth it just to see him grow up into a fine young man with a well
adapted life! i wish my son the best as i wish all children with autisim!
thanx for your time n just wanted to share my story would love some
feed back if you have something i could use to help me thru this thanx